made it to class on time , had a horrid critique .ahhh ok it wasnt that bad . but really . who likes faults being pointed out to them? so i gave myself a lil' pep talk & txtd gavi & seetah.
it really wasnt that bad. i mean it was evident that my drawing was not the strongest still life. but the teacher explained what i did wrong & i listened. tho when he called me honey , honey? wtf . i understand you sir . dont belittle me or "stoop" down to my level . honey? um no .
i took the advice from the critique & worked my ass off for the rest of the class. i dont know why that bothered me so much . maybe i was just looking for an excuse to be pissed. no one takes rejection well . & im no grade A student . but i know my weaknesses & strengths .
so that was the morning.....
came home ,cleaned,grubbed,listened to my roomate brake up with her boyfriend,called victor vented bout my critique & all lifes mishaps,lost reception , came back , cryed, yes cryed(i know) talked to victor again. ah . im already outta breath . went to the mission , came back, & now im blogging ,eh yea.
ha. it was so strange to be reminded of allthe things ive been avoiding.my mom, dad, school,money. ha . like lex said the other day ,"bebe! your only 18. things will clear up soon" yes yes i know . but when it rains it fucking pours.
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